If you were to ask me what my goals were right now, my answer would be different than what it was two years ago – even six months ago.
Let’s rewind about two years. I was unchallenged in my job, and I didn’t feel like my skills (writing) were being used. I wanted a job that allowed me to write every day, and I wanted to work in a place I felt excited to go to each day. So, I started modwife.co as a creative outlet, and I started dreaming of goals to grow my blog and what that looked like. I used my new-found blog and new online portfolio to land me my dream job.
This dream job was at public relations firm in a trendy office in a trendy party of town. I did it. I made my goal. But soon, my blog began to suffer because of my job. And, my marriage and I started to suffer because of my job. I had reached a goal, but it no longer served me or felt right, so I left my job.
I began doing freelance writing and communications instead of starting at another company. Freelance writing and working from home for myself had been a dream of mine since high school, or earlier. And, I did it. I made that goal.
It wasn’t clear to me at first, but eventually my goal became to make
freelancing work as a career. I simply didn’t want to go back to working for a company. I said I’d probably never do it again. There were pros and cons to freelancing, but the pros outweighed the cons at the time. I considered that maybe I wanted to grow my freelance work into a business.
I also created new goals for my blog. I rebranded to focus more on marriage and intimacy. I began discussing topics I was passionate about, yet nervous to write about prior. Suddenly, those new topics got me more website traffic to my blog than I’d ever dreamt of having. I did it. I grew my blog.
In the meantime, I realized I didn’t want to own my own communications business. Elevating my freelance work into an actual agency was the next step to being successful in freelance. But, if I was being honest with myself, I knew that I had a lot of goals, and starting an agency wasn’t one of them.
One night my husband and I sat on our patio, and I asked him to jot down the freelancing pros and cons I rambled off. Then I rambled off the pros and cons of working for a company again. Working for a company won, so I decided to start my job search. Getting a 9-5 job was my new goal.
I recently started a contract role at a job I like at a company I respect. It could lead to something within the company or it could not. But, it’s a good fit for me right now. I know this because I prayed endlessly during my job search and interviews with multiple companies. So, I did it. I made my goal.
My goals for my blog have shifted. I used to want brands to notice me and want to work with me. I don’t want to be a “blogger that works with brands” anymore. If a brand I love is interested in me, sure, I’ll be happy to partner up. But, that’s no longer what blogging success looks like to me. I simply want to be a girl who can inspire positivity, happiness and confidence within other women and their relationships. That is the goal of my blog right now.
A few months back I felt a little sad about how quickly my goals change. I felt like I’m someone who starts things, but doesn’t finish them. Because there are a lot of things I get amped up about, but don’t proceed with. However, I now realize I’m not wishy-washy at all. I’m just following my heart. I allow myself to entertain ideas, and I allow myself to walk away from them if I don’t feel 100 percent about them.
My journey the last couple of years has taught me that our goals constantly change. And, it’s not because we’re indecisive. It’s possible to fulfill a goal and to realize it no longer serves you – and it’s okay. It just means you’re evolving. It means you’re not sitting still. I truly believe every time our goals change, the next goal is taking us exactly where we’re meant to be at that moment. Our goals must evolve for us to find our true purpose, after all.